Tamso Ma Jyotirgamay

As I see around in the world I find people suffering in pain... And I always wondered why the pain is there. The first answer I got was:  Karma , we are responsible for our pain, our sufferings. It is direct outcome of actions we do during this lifetime or previous lifetimes. The most interesting part of this Karma is that even the best of us do not recognize when we do bad karma. In the name of convenience, circumstance or simply by inaction we become instrument of this bad karma. The answer was satisfactory and for years I was happy with this answer.... And then I experienced the pain of an evolved soul...  It was simply beyond my comprehension why an  evolved soul chooses the pain . Today, I understand, the reason is love. For evolved souls pain of physical body has no significance but they know they can lessen someone else pain by taking it on them, and out of love out of compassion they take the pain on them, happily. I got this answer years back but...

I am centuries old.... I was there when Ram came, I was there when Krishna was there... Meera, Kabir, Christ, Muhamad, Budha..... I saw them all.... And yet I escaped from their charm.... continued in the world of my own, my family... When the sweet glare of Ram wanted to touch my heart, I closed my eyes and also closed the path to my heart.... When the melodious voice of Krishna reached my ears, I was busy listening to the jingle of coins.... When Meera was dancing on the streets, I was sleeping contently in my bed.... Christ came to wake me up, but even his sacrifice on cross did not moved me.... The sword of Muhamad could not cut the veils of my dream.... Yes I missed them all... And today I am filled with the agony, the pain.... You have been very lenient with me.... But today I want you to force open my eyes... Shout deep in my ears.... Take off all the luxury and fill me with the pain, the desire of your love... Let me not 'Miss' you in this life....  

For past few days, I have been healing an old and pious Lady. She is very old, and is having lot of physical pain and suffering. The first day I sent her healing, I felt an aura filled with peace around her, it was so beautiful, so serene, that my head automatically bowed to her. Today as I started giving her healing, I prayed to God, "Please remove her suffering" A voice came back, "It is her own choice, you want me to take her freedom" I shot back, "How can a person himself choose so much suffering?" It replied, "Why do you think Jesus choose so much suffering?" " Life itself is full of suffering, so should I take away everyone's life" I defended, "No, I dont mean that, the suffering in life are there to teach us something, they help us Grow" It said, "A person with deep understanding, can choose himself to suffer for some higher goal..... you may not understand it today, but will one day" I have no more words...