Tamso Ma Jyotirgamay

Recent events in India, have forced me to write on this delicate issue. What should be the relationship between a disciple and his/her Guru? Ask anyone which subject they like most, and 90% of time the answer will be a subject taught by an adult (mostly school/college teacher) whom they adored. If in simple education, the prsence of love between student and teacher strengthens the flow of knowledge between them, then, spiritual knowledge is much more difficult to have, and requires utmost love and dedication of disciple towards their Spiritual teacher/Guru. Don't stop reading here!! I know you are thinking what a crap, but just have a little patience. When I love the subject, the work I am doing, I give my 100% to it, and spiritual knowledge requires giving more than 100%, yes at times I am surprised when people claim they are spiritual because from 24 hours of their life they give 15 minutes to some pooja, ritual, while they carry on their day as usual... How ca...

All our lives are nothing but just reactions, reaction to what others have done.  And thus whole of our lives are false. A wife is fighting with a husband on some trivial issue, not realizing it is because he said no that day when she wanted to go out shopping with him. It is her mind taking revenge in the only way she know. A child may get sick, not knowing at all that this is the reaction to the neglect he felt from his parents. We go on behaving in reaction.... most times even without knowing it... Become aware, become authentic, only then will you see the door.... will you see the Path _/\_

We all strive for power, some think getting more money will make me powerful, some getting more knowledge will give me more power, others believe in having influential friends will make them more powerful, and then there are some who think building strong body will make them more powerful. There arises a natural question, why everyone is striving for power , power for what , power over what ? Power so that we can do what we want . Power so that others listen to us, we can control them, tell them what to do. Yes by power one may control thousands, manipulate hundreds, but in truth, such a person is totally powerless... He is the slave of his own mind, he behaves the way mind wants it to behave. He is actually the most helpless of all. The real power is, control over one's own mind, मन . Because one who has controlled his mind, is the only one who really knows what he wants. Because one who has controlled his mind knows divine, knows the ways of divine, is in direct touch wi...

Why are our lives so full of contradiction? Probably, it is so because of our desire to be something, is it not so? We all want to become something, to become successful, to be listened by others, to be respected by others, to be loved by others... We all want to achieve something, money, name, fame, power, knowledge... This desire of becoming something, achieving something keeps us locked in dreams of future and calculations of past. As long as we stay away from present, that what is, we stay away from 'The Moment', away from that what 'IS".... This distance from the moment, from the what is.... brings all the contradictions.....

अाज राह में कुछ अजनबीयों से मुलाकात हुई। एक पन्द्रह-सोलह साल की उम्र का बालक था/ मध्यम कद, चकोर चहरा, अौर बडी गहरी अाँखें। अौर एक कार में बैठे एक पुरुष तथा एक युवती। बालक सडक के कोने पर शांत, खडा था। उस कार को उसी कोने से मुडना था, वह बालक कार के एकदम सामने था, सडक व्यस्त थी, या तो बालक अपनी जगह से हठे, अन्यथा कार उसको चोट पहुँचा सकती थी। कार वालों का पहला र्कत्य तो अाम था। उन्होने होर्न बजाया, उस बालक को हटने का इशारा भी किया। पर इसके बाद जो घटा वह कभी-कभी ही घटता है। बालक बिना झिझके वहीं खडा रहा। उसकी अाँखों ने बिना भय के, पहले पुरुष को देखा, पुरुष ने बिना क्रोध, बिना झुंझलाहट  उसे वापस देखा, वहाँ कोई भाव ना पा उसने युवती को देखा, युवती भावों का बवंडर थी। पहले तो युवती के मन में अाया की ये पागल है, उस बालक ने अोर गहरायी से युवती को देखा। इस दौरान, पुरुष ने कार अौर अागे बढाई, शायद वह भी बालक का प्रत्युत्तर देखना चाहता था। बालक बिल्कुल विचलीत नहीं हुअा। पर युवती इस भय से भर गई की कहीं बालक को चोट ना लग जाए, उसका पुरा अास्तित्व चाहा रहा था कि कार पिछे कर ली जाए, पुरुष ने का...

Today in the morning as I sat down for meditation, and went inside. Saw a big black hole. Literally a big black hole, it was absorbing all... the good the bad.... the planets... the galaxies...  Yes it was frightening at that moment... And so the eyes opened up, mind wanted to run away.... But whole day,   whenever I could  stole the time, I went inside to see and understand that black hole... Still do not understand it, but fear is no more... And a deep peace is emerging... a deep energy is emerging. Slowly getting the feel of the power of black hole :)

Every-time I meet someone new, they try to find out who am I? The conversation starts with information about my name, my profession, and finally family....   Is this I am? My name was given to me, even before I could speak, how can it be me? My profession was the outcome of life and its circumstances, how can it be me? My family was decided by birth, how can it be me? Then who am I? No, I do not know the answer, but there are many facets of self which I have discovered in this journey.... I am a student, there is some one inside me always eager to learn, new technologies, new meditations, experimenting them on self!! I am a teacher, whenever I find someone in trouble and I know the solution, I try to guide them, knowing very well, who will listen who will not listen!! I am a healer, I am filled with the compassion, the love and healing flows through me for all sentient beings!! I am a Wiccan, feeling God an Goddess in all the expressions of nature, communing with di...

As I see around in the world I find people suffering in pain... And I always wondered why the pain is there. The first answer I got was:  Karma , we are responsible for our pain, our sufferings. It is direct outcome of actions we do during this lifetime or previous lifetimes. The most interesting part of this Karma is that even the best of us do not recognize when we do bad karma. In the name of convenience, circumstance or simply by inaction we become instrument of this bad karma. The answer was satisfactory and for years I was happy with this answer.... And then I experienced the pain of an evolved soul...  It was simply beyond my comprehension why an  evolved soul chooses the pain . Today, I understand, the reason is love. For evolved souls pain of physical body has no significance but they know they can lessen someone else pain by taking it on them, and out of love out of compassion they take the pain on them, happily. I got this answer years back but...

Master, Teacher, Guru, they are all very respected words, and person who come to this position is very respected as well.... Before I continue further, It is important to know the difference: Who is a teacher? A teacher is one who teaches us things we need to learn to make a living in this world. The teacher who teaches us to write our name, read the first book, teaches us the mystery of science, the politics of world, or just vocation that can help us earn.... Who is a Master? A master is one who teaches us things which take us a little beyond this world, he teaches us not just something to earn in materialistic world, but also something  which gives us the glimpse that there is more than that meet eyes. Master teaches me to meditate, do yoga, he teaches me healing... Who is a Guru?   ... I can be a teacher. I learned many subjects, many techniques and I teach them to all who want to learn.. I can be the Master, I can teach meditation, divination, heali...

There are people who say without Guru there is no salvation....  When I meet a Guru... I surrender to him completely... What he asks me to do may look stupid, foolish, or even wrong, but I continue.... He thrashes me, cuts my ego into pieces many times, he kneads me, burns all my karma's ... till I am ready to enter the God's garden.....   And there are those who say t he whole existence is my Guru... I learn from every event that has happened in my life. And I am grateful to all that has happened, because out of all that learning I have arrived...  I learn from the plants, the trees, the wind...I learn from the stars, the sun, the wind.... I learn from the new born child, the children playing in ground, In learn from the old gentleman sitting on the bench in the garden... I learn from the storms, the killings, the war... And then there are those who do not have heart to surrender to one Guru, and are neither have the courage to bow ...

Confusion is a state of mind, when it is no longer able to decide what to do, it is confused... Confusion in our materialistic world is harmful.... But due to complex nature of world around us, it is unavoidable. Only someone very much grounded/stable can handle all of them competently.... Confusion in our relationships is even more harmful, and unlike confusion present at workplace, these are our own doing..... We create these confusions, by not acting honestly with people who matter.... We create them by hiding things... We create them by lying.... Confusion in the spiritual world (I prefer to call it inner world) can be useful.... There comes a stage due to these confusion created either by circumstances or our own wrong doings, when we completely surrender... Tell God there is nothing more I can do... You please take care.... I leave everything to you.... Then the same confusions can show us, give us the glimpse of something that exist beyond what our eyes can see...ou...

Few months back chrysanthemum stone came to me... A double center and very beautiful transparent petals.. The moment it was in my hand... I knew it will guide me to my relevant past life... And just the second night, while meditating, a knowledge from past was revealed... In one of my past lives, I was working with the aspect of negative energies.... I used to heal people but using the not so good means of energy.... My intention was good, but my means were not good.... And so to fulfill that good intention, in this life I was introduced to positive energy healing concepts in this lifetime....

प्रभु मैं तुम्हारे पैरों की बेडी ना बनूँ .... ना पूंछु ऐसा क्यों और वैसा क्यों नहीं.....           प्रभु मैं तुम्हारे कंधो का बोझ ना बनूँ ..... तुम जितनी ऊँची चाहे उड़ान भरो.. प्रभु मैं तो बस तुम्हारी छाया बन जायुं... तुम जहाँ ले चलो बस वहीँ चलूँ.... Translation: My love, my god, make me not your bondage....     Let me never question you, why you did this to me, and why this not.... My love, my god, make me not a burden of your shoulders....     Let me never be an obstacle in your flight.... My love, my god, make me your shadow...     So that I go where ever you take me....             with no question, no doubt, no fear.....

Few months back I got up from my bed, went to the bathroom to refresh.... there seeing myself in mirror a part of me told me it is a dream, you are not awake, you are dreaming that you are awake.... I tried to force myself to get awake... I was awake, following the morning ritual I started for bathroom, but in way I knew this too is a dream.... This continued for one more time... Finally I was awake...    This sort of dreams are called False awakening ,  beside many things the fact that the person is more aware makes them happen ..... This incident put me into a very different state of mind... How do I know that this is not a dream?.   Since this sort of incident happened second time in my life I wanted to know if there is some significance.....I asked for guidance....   My inner self replied why do you want to be sure that you are not dreaming..... How does it matter if this too is a dream..... I started seeing everything around me as i...

I am centuries old.... I was there when Ram came, I was there when Krishna was there... Meera, Kabir, Christ, Muhamad, Budha..... I saw them all.... And yet I escaped from their charm.... continued in the world of my own, my family... When the sweet glare of Ram wanted to touch my heart, I closed my eyes and also closed the path to my heart.... When the melodious voice of Krishna reached my ears, I was busy listening to the jingle of coins.... When Meera was dancing on the streets, I was sleeping contently in my bed.... Christ came to wake me up, but even his sacrifice on cross did not moved me.... The sword of Muhamad could not cut the veils of my dream.... Yes I missed them all... And today I am filled with the agony, the pain.... You have been very lenient with me.... But today I want you to force open my eyes... Shout deep in my ears.... Take off all the luxury and fill me with the pain, the desire of your love... Let me not 'Miss' you in this life....  

" Our faith is so fragile. one small obstruction in the path and we start questioning him. " When the life is running smooth, we are getting what we desire, it is easy to say, I have faith in God. I surrender to him completely.  So, when, I have friends, I have good health, I have good job, life is sailing smooth. Then God is great, he looks after his people.. and so on. But the moment, life brings the moment of struggle, we ask, why me God? Why me? What have I done wrong? So, when I lose friends/family, I am suffering from life threatening disease, I have no penny to eat next meal.... God is not just, there is no God, God only listens to rich and might!!! Is this a real faith? Real faith is the firm faith, that no matter what, God loves me and is looking after me in the best manner possible.

Empathy is the ability of a person to be able to feel others persons pain, hurt, emotions etc. I guess growth of empathy is a natural outcome of growing healing powers. Being a practicing healer, I have developed strong empathy for others emotions, so much so that sometimes it becomes difficult to remain calm. Their anger, their frustration, their scheming plots, and all the evil thoughts going on in others mind were affecting me, I was feeling every inch of it. This had been affecting my emotional well being. And in the profession I am, it was becoming detrimental. So today I decided to protect myself from the emotional outbreaks of others. I asked for the guidance, and I was guided to use rose quartz. The effect was wonderful. In the first morning class, the students were same, but I did not for once felt frustration and anger. Then in the meeting, despite the presence of same hyperactive Principal, my emotional state was calm, and it was possible for me to tell her to move fo...

This is a theory many people in world give to explain, the presence of God. For them there are some aliens, out there in sky, with more mental powers, better technology... whom we think of as God!!! Is it true? My only question is that if some alien.... some being,  no matter how powerful, no matter how technologically advanced is out there.... He must have taken birth.... and any one who takes birth will die.... If we can pin point to one being as God, then we leave everything else as being Un-God!!! I am not ready to believe this.... I have felt the God in me....  I have felt the God in the blooming of flowers..... I have felt the God in the laughter with friends.... I have felt the God in the eyes of my lover.... For me the God is there everywhere, there is not a thing without God....  The aliens may be there, may not be there.... But God Is.....

Rei means Universal Ki means Life force energy... we all know that.... So what is reiki? A healing modality? A way of life? A way to fullfill our dreams desires? A solution to all our problems...? Reiki is a divine energy, coming directly from the divine source.... We can be a medium and make ourselves available so that it flows through us, and touch others.... The more flute like, egoless, ME less, we are the more beautiful is the song that reiki will play through us.. Reiki has an intelligence of its own... It knows what needs to be done for our highest good.... So while we can request it to heal the disease, to solve a problem, to fulfill our desire.... It will do what is excatly right for us....

There are only two ways to live life..... Either Leave everything on him.... whatever happens accept fully... with gratitude, with love.... Or Take everything in your hand... nothing is left to chance... Whatever happens I am responsible... There is no one else to blame... If we live either way we are leading a spirtual life.... The real Life... The tragedy is we are not either completely... We leave some on him and take some in our hand.... And this is the cause Of all misery... All ignorance... All pain...