Tamso Ma Jyotirgamay

Today in the morning as I sat down for meditation, and went inside. Saw a big black hole. Literally a big black hole, it was absorbing all... the good the bad.... the planets... the galaxies...  Yes it was frightening at that moment... And so the eyes opened up, mind wanted to run away.... But whole day,   whenever I could  stole the time, I went inside to see and understand that black hole... Still do not understand it, but fear is no more... And a deep peace is emerging... a deep energy is emerging. Slowly getting the feel of the power of black hole :)

Every-time I meet someone new, they try to find out who am I? The conversation starts with information about my name, my profession, and finally family....   Is this I am? My name was given to me, even before I could speak, how can it be me? My profession was the outcome of life and its circumstances, how can it be me? My family was decided by birth, how can it be me? Then who am I? No, I do not know the answer, but there are many facets of self which I have discovered in this journey.... I am a student, there is some one inside me always eager to learn, new technologies, new meditations, experimenting them on self!! I am a teacher, whenever I find someone in trouble and I know the solution, I try to guide them, knowing very well, who will listen who will not listen!! I am a healer, I am filled with the compassion, the love and healing flows through me for all sentient beings!! I am a Wiccan, feeling God an Goddess in all the expressions of nature, communing with di...

As I see around in the world I find people suffering in pain... And I always wondered why the pain is there. The first answer I got was:  Karma , we are responsible for our pain, our sufferings. It is direct outcome of actions we do during this lifetime or previous lifetimes. The most interesting part of this Karma is that even the best of us do not recognize when we do bad karma. In the name of convenience, circumstance or simply by inaction we become instrument of this bad karma. The answer was satisfactory and for years I was happy with this answer.... And then I experienced the pain of an evolved soul...  It was simply beyond my comprehension why an  evolved soul chooses the pain . Today, I understand, the reason is love. For evolved souls pain of physical body has no significance but they know they can lessen someone else pain by taking it on them, and out of love out of compassion they take the pain on them, happily. I got this answer years back but...

Master, Teacher, Guru, they are all very respected words, and person who come to this position is very respected as well.... Before I continue further, It is important to know the difference: Who is a teacher? A teacher is one who teaches us things we need to learn to make a living in this world. The teacher who teaches us to write our name, read the first book, teaches us the mystery of science, the politics of world, or just vocation that can help us earn.... Who is a Master? A master is one who teaches us things which take us a little beyond this world, he teaches us not just something to earn in materialistic world, but also something  which gives us the glimpse that there is more than that meet eyes. Master teaches me to meditate, do yoga, he teaches me healing... Who is a Guru?   ... I can be a teacher. I learned many subjects, many techniques and I teach them to all who want to learn.. I can be the Master, I can teach meditation, divination, heali...

There are people who say without Guru there is no salvation....  When I meet a Guru... I surrender to him completely... What he asks me to do may look stupid, foolish, or even wrong, but I continue.... He thrashes me, cuts my ego into pieces many times, he kneads me, burns all my karma's ... till I am ready to enter the God's garden.....   And there are those who say t he whole existence is my Guru... I learn from every event that has happened in my life. And I am grateful to all that has happened, because out of all that learning I have arrived...  I learn from the plants, the trees, the wind...I learn from the stars, the sun, the wind.... I learn from the new born child, the children playing in ground, In learn from the old gentleman sitting on the bench in the garden... I learn from the storms, the killings, the war... And then there are those who do not have heart to surrender to one Guru, and are neither have the courage to bow ...

Confusion is a state of mind, when it is no longer able to decide what to do, it is confused... Confusion in our materialistic world is harmful.... But due to complex nature of world around us, it is unavoidable. Only someone very much grounded/stable can handle all of them competently.... Confusion in our relationships is even more harmful, and unlike confusion present at workplace, these are our own doing..... We create these confusions, by not acting honestly with people who matter.... We create them by hiding things... We create them by lying.... Confusion in the spiritual world (I prefer to call it inner world) can be useful.... There comes a stage due to these confusion created either by circumstances or our own wrong doings, when we completely surrender... Tell God there is nothing more I can do... You please take care.... I leave everything to you.... Then the same confusions can show us, give us the glimpse of something that exist beyond what our eyes can see...ou...

Few months back chrysanthemum stone came to me... A double center and very beautiful transparent petals.. The moment it was in my hand... I knew it will guide me to my relevant past life... And just the second night, while meditating, a knowledge from past was revealed... In one of my past lives, I was working with the aspect of negative energies.... I used to heal people but using the not so good means of energy.... My intention was good, but my means were not good.... And so to fulfill that good intention, in this life I was introduced to positive energy healing concepts in this lifetime....